Kuliling

location: Essex Junction, VT

mood: calm

music: R-E-S-P-E-C-T by Aretha Franklin (my LSS for the day)

We are all guilty of narcissism. Even if I refuse to admit it, I should.  The fact that I don't admit would just make me an even bigger narcissist thinking that I'm all good and selfless.  It's funny how we all display our own quirks without realizing how self absorbed we are.  I didn't notice it myself until I saw my daughter and figured she got it all from me. hahaha

She likes hanging out in the bathroom because she wanted to see her reflection while she tries on her dress-up clothes and shoes.  One time I even caught her singing while standing in a stool in front of the full-length mirror.  When asked what she's doing, she'll say, "I'm having a concert, Nanay"

If you ask how my daughter turned out to be such, I could only blame myself.

Yes that's the narcissistic me...I just realized that today when I left a voicemail for somebody at work...and I had to review the message not for the message to be actually reviewed...but just to hear my own voice! hahaha  In fact, I am so self absorbed, I sometimes call my own extension number just to hear how I sound in the answering machine (even if I heard it hundreds of times before)!  How sick is that??
 

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Today it was 50F out and is a considered a nice day in usually chilly Vermont.  I was wearing my black shoe with white piping which have gathered several comments like "awww those shoes are cute!! where did you get them??".     When I tried it on for the first time in 4 months, they are kindda small and my foot hurts a bit.  Then i realized I bought them in a size 6.5, when I'm actually a 7 just because the store ran out of size 7's.  But since I wanted a cute shoe, I had to have them half a size smaller even if it hurts like hell. The mantra, "No Pain No Gain" could go a little overboard at times. 

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So yeah...I'm all about looking good image-wise, physical or not.  Getting a little over the top sometimes, but yes, I put a lot of effort into that and it makes me a little more content and happy.  Although selflessness is a virtue that is worth striving for, a little "love thyself" wouldn't hurt.  It is pride and self-respect that makes us the best people we could be to be able to be the best person to whom our children could look up to.  Instilling self-worth in a child is also good for them and is one of the most valuable life-virtues you could impart. 

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